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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 13:02:07 GMT

what should i do? separation is not the answer, i do not want to be separated from the person i love with all of my heart. i understand the fact that if we are meant to be together then we will be together in the end, but i dont want to wait for that. i want to work things out now. i am slowly slipping back into my state of depression that i was in a little bit over a year ago, until i met the person who i knew i was going to spend the rest of my life with and for the past year i have been one of the happiest people on this planet. but i guess god hates me, i guess i am being punished, i guess im supposed to be depressed for the rest of my life.

i dont know what else to say other than i want, need, and love this man with all of my heart. and yes i was hurt, but love overcomes that, as well as truth, and he has been completely honest with me throught all of our relationship.

benjamin, i love you and always will. i hope that we will be able to continue what we started. i understand that this is not easy for you either, but you are the one who called the break. it is definitely not easy for me. because i see no reason why you would want this.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 07:29:29 GMT

Tonight I realized that the red blinking alarm lights inside of cars are quite entertaining.

Dear lord I havent been on here in forever, I keep forgetting about this place.

That is all for now, maybe there will be more later. After I've had a chance to sleep.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 04:29:17 GMT

I guess its time for my quarterly update...lol. I'm so bad about keeping up with this thing.

Things are going well as usual, im glad that the holidays are over for work's sake. Retail + Holidays = Evil. But its back to our usual slowness now, which is good, and bad. Good because we get done early at night, and bad because we get done early at night and i dont get all of the hours that i was originally suppposed to get. But other than that things are going well at work!

School starts back soon, on the 17th i believe. I'm sticking with the whole Tuesday/Thursday classes.

I believe that is all for now, ill update again in a few months as usual.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 12:32:38 GMT

Wow...its been a while since I have updated, it seems to always happen that way.

Lots of interesting things have been happening lately, this past month has been great. School is going well, we have a painting show in 2 weeks, im very excited for that. This semester is already halfway done and I cant believe that.

Tonight im going to mckinney to see ben. I think that we are gonna go to denton or something and hang out with a few of his friends, maybe party a little or something.

I wish I didnt have to work so freaking early on monday and then I would definitely be able to go out to the club on sunday, which I may still go and just be tired all day monday while im at work from 8-5.

Well I think that is about all that I have, I will try to update more often, but who knows. I seemed to get sidetracked and then forget about this place. It's the Myspace addiction.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 12:57:11 GMT

Back from florida...well we have been back since monday. Fun trip, it was good to see brandon and such. But then again...he is moving back to texas...he will be here this evening actually. Yay! Someone else to drag to the club.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 22:51:55 GMT

Leaving for Florida in a couple of hours. Much fun will be had. Coming back on the 14th, so yeah....a week in Florida!!!

Holy hell, Gwen Stefani is coming to town, and the Black Eyed Peas are going to be special guests at the concert. I'm all about that. I want to get tickets. Anyone want to help me out with buying said tickets?? Or better yet, anyone want to go??

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 15:02:24 GMT

Not much happening lately.

Traveled up to denton a couple of times to visit friends. Thats always fun. I think the plan for the trip to florida is August 8-14. I've talked with my managers and I should be able to get it off.

I'm running out of money, I keep buying things. Why cant I stop? I get paid on friday though. But thats like 4 days from now. I also have jury duty on friday....gross. I better not get picked, I will be very unhappy.

I want another tattoo, I know what I want now. It is going to be the basis of some of my art pieces. It fits me well. I think that it is going to go on my right side...tummy/hip area. That way it is balanced, because I have the one on my left foot...and yeah I need to balance out.

Why cant I just say the things to people that I want to say? Why must I always weigh out the responses. ALWAYS. I read way into things sometimes, maybe thats not always the best thing.....but I cant help it. You know maybe I need to get really drunk, and then things can just come out on their own! Maybe I shouldn't think so much and let things go with the flow. I dont know.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 03:52:08 GMT

Things have been good lately. I have decided not to transfer out in the fall, too much stress would come from that I believe. I'm looking forward to taking painting II at tcc. I believe that I will excel in that class. I already have a multitude of ideas.

Also....I'm sick of being single. Ill just leave it at that

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 23:50:11 GMT

In California....Katie and I got here yesterday evening. Last night we just walked the beach and the santa monica pier. The pier has rides, shops and such. Then we went to the 3rd st. Promenade. Wonderful street lined with wonderful stores.

Today we got up and walked to Venice Beach....which is a Trek. I think we probably walked around 10-15 miles so far today. We went to the Out of the Closet thrift store in Venice. I didnt find anything there, Katie got some books and such. Then after the Thrift store we went back down to the beach and got some lunch and then I got my lip pierced. It didnt hurt that bad though, what hurt was when the lady was putting the ring in and she had to find the hole on the inside of my lip again.

We are back in the hotel room for now. I think we are going to go back to the promenade this evening...and we are going to shop this time. Then tomorrow we are going to spend the day in West Hollywood looking around and such.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 02:18:38 GMT

Leaving for Cali tomorrow!!! I'm incredibly excited. We are staying in Santa Monica. Mmm....beach. We will be back on Saturday.

I think that is about all I have for now.