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| what should i do? separation is not the answer, i do not want to be separated from the person i love with all of my heart. i understand the fact that if we are meant to be together then we will be together in the end, but i dont want to wait for that. i want to work things out now. i am slowly slipping back into my state of depression that i was in a little bit over a year ago, until i met the person who i knew i was going to spend the rest of my life with and for the past year i have been one of the happiest people on this planet. but i guess god hates me, i guess i am being punished, i guess im supposed to be depressed for the rest of my life. i dont know what else to say other than i want, need, and love this man with all of my heart. and yes i was hurt, but love overcomes that, as well as truth, and he has been completely honest with me throught all of our relationship. benjamin, i love you and always will. i hope that we will be able to continue what we started. i understand that this is not easy for you either, but you are the one who called the break. it is definitely not easy for me. because i see no reason why you would want this. | | |
| Tonight I realized that the red blinking alarm lights inside of cars are quite entertaining.
Dear lord I havent been on here in forever, I keep forgetting about this place.
That is all for now, maybe there will be more later. After I've had a chance to sleep. | | |
| I guess its time for my quarterly update...lol. I'm so bad about keeping up with this thing.
Things are going well as usual, im glad that the holidays are over for
work's sake. Retail + Holidays = Evil. But its back to our usual
slowness now, which is good, and bad. Good because we get done early at
night, and bad because we get done early at night and i dont get all of
the hours that i was originally suppposed to get. But other than that
things are going well at work!
School starts back soon, on the 17th i believe. I'm sticking with the whole Tuesday/Thursday classes.
I believe that is all for now, ill update again in a few months as usual.
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| Wow...its been a while since I have updated, it seems to always happen that way.
Lots of interesting things have been happening lately, this past month has been great. School is going well, we have a painting show in 2 weeks, im very excited for that. This semester is already halfway done and I cant believe that.
Tonight im going to mckinney to see ben. I think that we are gonna go to denton or something and hang out with a few of his friends, maybe party a little or something.
I wish I didnt have to work so freaking early on monday and then I would definitely be able to go out to the club on sunday, which I may still go and just be tired all day monday while im at work from 8-5.
Well I think that is about all that I have, I will try to update more often, but who knows. I seemed to get sidetracked and then forget about this place. It's the Myspace addiction. | | |
| Back from florida...well we have been back since monday. Fun trip,
it was good to see brandon and such. But then again...he is moving back
to texas...he will be here this evening actually. Yay! Someone else to
drag to the club. | | |
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